omgomgomg oh mai godddddd.
First paragraph is a little irrelevant. Read on if you want. It's optional.

Okay okay so i had netball today and before that i had lunch with one of my teammate so we decided to walk from Bedok Point all the way to our school, which is bedok south and yea, it took quite a while.
So when we reached tanah merah on our journey there, we ran into our Coach and my crush and he was blabbering how hungry he was yadayadayada.
So he so-called treated us to lunch, but merely drinks since we had korean food for lunch (\m/) and he was talking about the future and careers and so on.
So my coach was telling us what we can do to pursue our dreams without stressing ourselves out. Since my friend is more of a studying type, my coach told her what subjects you have to focus on blablabla.
And then i asked him, what if you want to pursue something not related to studies? Then he asked me to give an example. So i just pretended, giving him 'Dancing'.
I think by then he could have figured out where was i going already. So he asked me, how good of a dancer am i and am i willing to travel overseas and so on.

So there, my coach suddenly told me, after O levels, come and see him.
His ... girlfriend .... happens to be a professional dancer, hip hop/traditional/whatever/. But she's in Indonesia. So he told me, after i finish with my studies, i can go over there and get trained by her. I can even live with her and not fork out a cent, of course with my parents approval.
So it's something like getting accepted into a company, but this is Indonesia. And he told me she owns a dance school. So i can get trained in dance more.

And this is where it gets confusing.

So i asked 3 of my netballers with 3 different opinions.

She said i should consider this, since it's an opportunity to pursue my dancing career and if i get more training in dance, i can just audition for any entertainment and hopefully get in and BAM. i can debut.


It's true that it's an once in a lifetime opportunity for me. But what if i didn't make it? Considering the fact that i stopped after O levels and just pursue my dreams, if i failed, i have nothing to back me up. Atleast i should get a degree so that i can have a back up.

I don't really know my coach's girlfriend that well. And i'll be travelling to another country, without any of my families or friends or basically anyone i know to look after me. Basically my safety level would be damn low and i can just get killed without anyone knowing. And my relation with my coach is just a student-teacher relationship. I can't really trust him that well. Maybe once i manage to be independent and learn how to take care of myself, i will consider about this.

Okay guise, i'm really confused right now.
So i guess i must finish my poly education & gain independence to grab this opportunity?
Whatcha guise think?




Okay last one.
I feel like cutting my hair like Hwayoung's omg.
My .. precious .. long .. hair T__T

 Xoxo, Eezah (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

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