So yesterday was the semi finals for the Super Kpop Dance Season 2

I reached there around 10.15am(?) to get my make-up done.

The lady that did my make-up was pretty nice. She wasn't so chatty. Making a small chats here and there.

I was a little nervous as it has been so long since a stranger applied make-up to my face lol.

She seemed to envy my eyes & eyelashes though. One of her colleagues came over to help her do for me my eyelashes. And while she was doing it, she was like saying to me, "I'll pluck out all your eyelashes and sell them."

.... that was very traumatizing....

So this was how my face looked like. I felt bad if i erased it cause i would just be wasting their efforts ><

But yay i got my smoky eyes ♥ LOL a little too smoky.

LOL okok 3 lesser scary pictures on how i look like on that day.

The event started around 2pm. NeoN was the first guest performer. And Cheyenne was the first to kick start the competition.

I was the third. And my backstage experience wasn't so good. I felt like vomiting a few times. But i couldn't, since i'm fasting and the only thing i could puke out was my break fast in the morning and the acid.

So i tried to ignore the feeling.

Sooner or later it was my turn to perform.

I did a T-ARA mashup, consisting of Cry Cry, Time to Love 2 & I Go Crazy Because of You.

Just nice. I could only last till the end of TTL2 before i had to stop and the puke nearly came out from my mouth.

It was super horrible. Worst experience ever.

.. Actually. I would have fainted on stage. But puking seems better in this case.

Headed to the toilet to cool myself down. Thanks to Anna & Rayna for accompanying me ♥ ♥

I was really grateful for the organizers for giving me a second chance to perform. But i had to like perform after everyone has finished performing T__T And the last one was Leggo OTL major decrease in self-esteem. But yay i managed to talk to them at backstage weeeee major fangirl *__*

I had to break my fast on that day.... Please forgive me.

However, it just got worse as i started suffering from gastric pain OTL

So while everyone was performing, i was down there trying to think how to get rid of the pain in my tummy.

But thank god, everything went well during my second try. Thank you universe ♥

Even though it wasn't my full out, atleast it was better than puking again.

Meet Hanna from Last Minute! (and Edward the photo bomber)

And of course. Elle & Anna for always being there for me ♥

So after everything, they had games and guest performers and stuffs.

And i was just sitting there. Feeling disappointed with myself.

'cause really, it would be a miracle if the judges called out my name saying i got through to the finals.

I tried believing in myself. But i was just too depressed to even think when they were calling out the names.

But to no avail.

So then i tried using my willpower to think positively again instead of thinking how i'm probably not good enough for the judges which leads to me being not good enough for everyone.

But whenever i tried to think of the bright side, the negative side will just jump back in and i'll just be sad all over again.

So this pretty much described how i was feeling.

And the cycle repeats.

I would really like to thank the dance off peeps for showing their concern for me on that day.

And yes, i shall list down their names because i'm that touched.

Rayna. Kenneth. Maya. Annabelle. Ina. Joyce. Shi hui.

(i hope i didn't miss out anyone lol)

And also the staff lady that offered her mint sweets & a drink for me before i went up on stage for the second time.

If i could, i would really have showered you guys in glitters and rainbows for your concern.

So after all that mixed feelings, I've finally settled on one decision.